i'm just tired, annoyed, and hungry.

i am just flat out getting annoyed with people. i just can't stand it when people can't act like normal trustworthy humans with integrity. it seems like around here anytime you are counting on someone to be there they just decide to not show up. and it's not even for a reason just simply, "well, i don't know. i think i'll just wait around and hope a better offer comes by." i mean have some integrity. why can't people just say what they mean? for instance, i have this halloween party coming up and my best friends have been telling me for like 2 weeks, "yeah, michael i'll be there. it sounds like fun." then what do ya know all of the sudden the past few days everyone's been bailing. and like i said for no reason. it's as if that there's something wrong with me or i don't know. it's just annoying. like say what you mean. "let your word be bond". are there people in this world that can make a commitment? if i say i'm going to do something, you better believe i'm going to do it. and if i can't there's going to be a good reason. like: i'm sick, there was a family emergency, ect. something real that is happening that is beyond my control.

another thing is personalities. it's just getting me to the bone. like tonight we went to eastgate mall to pick up my paycheck (that was only $20, haha.) and maddie told me she was hungry before we left. so after we picked up my check we walked over to the food court to get something to eat because she said she wanted to eat at the chic-fil-a. well ok. so we walked all the way to the food court. then all of the sudden she decided she didn't want to eat there because they were about to close. so ok. we walked out to car and as we were pulling out i asked her and john where they wanted to go eat. and of course we started the "i don't care" game. you know that one where someone says, "i don't care. where do you wanna eat?" then the other person responds, "well, it doesn't matter to me. where do you wanna go?" this goes on and on until someone guesses the place that was in the mind of the first person to begin with but for some reason they just didn't want to say it. this game is popular when a girl and a boy are on opposing sides. well we were pulling out of the parking lot and maddie said she wanted to go to wendy's. then i told her that she knows i don't like wendy's. well then we continued the stupid game until i passed o' charley's. when of course maddie said, "well, how bout o' charley's?" to which i said, "ok. sounds good." i drive down the road and turn around while john is in the back seat talking about wether or not he wants to go to a resturant. (mind you. he wasn't even hungry to begin with.) so we played the usual game with john where we had to beg and beg him to give us a yes or no answer. he then said that he was just planning on going back to cali and getting on the treadmill. so i had driven all the way down the road to only turn around again. so i'm fed up by this point. i finally say, "ok. pick a place. i'm sick of this. i'm just gonna drive us back if no one can tell me where they want to eat." maddie then tells me once again that she wants to go to wendy's. so i'm like fine. whatever i'll just go to wendy's and not eat anything. i'm just tired of this whole stupid situation. so we get back to the room, i'm still hungry and everything. and i just start this blog. while i'm sitting here wayne comes out of his room says some kind of statement that he thinks is german (he claims one of his close relatives is from romania (which he says with a stupid rolled "r" of course) and that she taught him german at one point. because of this he goes around saying these german words that don't exist and when i attest he just claims that i'm not that advanced in my german classes. go figure. because we all know wayne was born better than everyone else) and goes back and watches a movie with john who decided he did want to run on the treadmill anymore. surprise.

while i'm talking to you i'm chatting with cody, one of my best friends, about coming to my party this weekend. he told me he wasn't for sure if he was going to come, then it was a yes, then it was "well i think i have a doctor's appointment on saturday", then come to find out that's on monday, and now his excuse is that he's got a soccer game on sunday morning. of course he's not sure what time. go figure that john's not coming to the party because... well he doesn't have an excuse. wayne is coming, great. now i can really enjoy my party. doug's not coming because he waited to give me an answer til some better offer came along and he could commit to that. stacy's not coming because although she told us 3 times this week that she could, she claims that one of he friends told katie jeauno that she was going to her house yesterday... so explain to me why a commitment that you made 3 times could be broken because someone else misunderstood you and told another person that you could commit to their occasion? anissa's not coming because... she wanted to go home? although she could have gone home last weekend but decided not to because... well probably so she would have had an excuse to not come. sarah's not coming because although she had told her parents about a week ago that she was going to louisville for a halloween party they still expected her to be able to housesit for them while they went out of town. this is all just a stupid mess. if you aren't able to commit to someone because you just don't have any integrity then i don't really want to be involved with you. and if you don't want to be my friend then just tell me. say what you mean and let it be bond.

it just seems like anytime i go out of my way to make something happen everyone just walks all over me and anytime anyone else plans something everyone is all on board. also it gets on my nerves that when it involves money it's pretty much a guaranteed no. well surprise cody just gave me a definite no because he's got a soccer game on sunday morning. so instead of riding back with andrew who's coming back or just skipping the soccer game, well i know how much more important soccer is than friends. i mean who am i kidding? he said he wasn't sure if he could go to begin with, then it changed to a yes, so i should have know he had other plans that he just didn't want to tell me about.

gosh. this is just stupid. it just seems like all my life i've only encountered people who can't commit to anything. what is wrong?

langeweile.

hahaha. well believe it or not i didn't even get to blog about/during my california trip, which was the original point of me having this blog. oh well. hahaha. well today was the first day of classes here at nku and it has been nothing less than amazing. i'm not going to lie, my first year here was so great but every now and then i had my doubts and second guesses. after being back for about four or five days i have definitely been affirmed in my decision to go here. i am loving it more and more. it's almost like i've just come back home. and that feels weird for me to say because i've lived in the same place all my life and have never been able to feel at home anywhere else other than, well, home. every time i'm out and about i'm constantly stopping to talk to friends and people i know here. that's such a great feeling. everyone is so genuinely excited to see each other after a long 3 month break. let's just say lots of hugs all the time. but right now i'm a little bit bored waiting for 2:30 to roll around so i can go to my "interview" at pac sun. there are so many friends i haven't seen yet and can't wait to get to talk to them. btw my cubby i call a room looks so awesome.

capri-days.

well, once again it's been a few days since i last talked to you all. i'm getting really excited about the trip only 4 days, 1 hour, and 30 minutes before i board the greyhound to chicago, then catch a cab to the airport, and finally get on the plane to LA. the past few days have been a little boring, i've just been working and watching roseanne. well, and then there's the occasional p90x whenever i get the chance. i've also been trying to get my dad... AAHHHHH, I'M SO FREAKING TIRED OF THOSE STUPID DELL COMMERCIALS WITH THE "LOLLIPOP, LOLLIPOP" SONG!!! i just heard it for the second time in one commercial break, not to mention that they show it at least once each break. i hate dumb commercials. i mean people go to college and get degrees to make this garbage. i could make better commercials than that and i'm a 19 year old with no experience in anything. ok, well back to the dad story. i've been trying to get my dad to call this guy who smokes cigarettes while he drinks his capri-suns on the back of his truck, to buy his jetta. it's been over a week since we've been in contact with capri-man and nothing has happened yet. but if everything goes well, which it won't, i'll be driving a jetta in the near future. well anyway i'm just gonna veg-out some more before i have to go to work tomorrow at 1 (the worst/longest shift ever).

krispy kreme.

i've accidentally managed to leave a few days gap in my blogging. so lucky for you i'll try to sum it all up in one post. the other day mom took me to the peddler's mall and surprisingly it was super sweet. i got this awesome lady of guadalupe sign/painting thing (it's really hard to describe so i'll just leave it at that). i also found a three piece mirror set that has mountains, an eagle, some buffalo, and an indian chief painted on them in gold and black paint. all of these put together only cost about $13. let's see what else did i do? hmmmm. i went to the pool today. oh and then after that i went to ear x-tacy in the highlands (i know, i'm so hardcore). i had never been there either and it was pretty ok. they've got some good posters. on the way back alex and i couldn't resist the neon red sign that said hot and ready (or something like that) at krispy kreme. i got a dozen assortment. yum. i'm going to save at least one for tomorrow morning when i go see harry potter 6 for the second time. maybe i'll get to see another preview for "where the wild things are". oh i almost forgot. i found this rediculous/cool song. you will think it's so stupid, but trust me in about an hour or so you'll be singing it. it's infectious.

the original

the remix

the what's?

wild things.

i went to see harry potter last night (in costume of course) and i saw a preview for "where the wild things are". it looked so awesome. i mean arcade fire is doing the soundtrack. how can you go wrong with that? anyway, i think that the kid's costume would be cool to wear on halloween (hint hint). the trailer gave me chill bump so i'm going to post it:

ich schwimme gern.

so maddie had suggested that i use my blog to document my trip to cali. so you can look forward to hearing every detail about my trip. haha. i bet you're so excited. anyway, the other day she also told me that the teen choice awards are going to be held one of the days that i'm there. alex and i checked the nominations list and basically everyone is going to be there. so of course i'm going to go stand outside of the red carpet and see all those famous people. sounds pretty cool. in other news, i'm going swimming today for the second time this week. and then i'm going to the midnight premier of harry potter. needless to say: very excite.

cali.

well, appearantly the pictures from my last post aren't showing up. but i guess that really doesn't matter because i'm going to CALIFORNIA (that's right, california) on the 4th of august. so i guess i won't be buying all those things i talked about last time. but whatever i don't care. my friend alex came in from germany to visit for about a month and he decided he wanted to go so i said, "ok". so we're going to catch a greyhound bus to chicago that night and catch a flight from there to LA. needless to say, i'm pretty pumped. we're also going to be able to be at the red carpet for the teen choice awards. cool, right? we're staying until the 11th and then coming home the same way we went. i'm so excited and definitely willing to give up those things that i want to go on this sweet trip. i can't wait.